Damage ControlWhen someone demonstrates that they don't care about you, there is a point where you realize they never DID care about you and that smarts. It would be a lot easier to deal with if you had not fooled yourself into believing they cared, or were your friend for that matter. I'm really not sure what sort of person it takes to callously use others for their own benefit, and then cast them aside like a used paper cup. Plus there is the disappointment I feel with myself when I realize that I misjudged someone who is so blatantly assholish. (I deem that a real word)
People seem to think that dating is like shopping on the internet.. Just keep piling things in your "cart" and don't bother to remove them once you decide you don't want that item. Whatever happened to people being forthright, upfront, honest or straight with others? What ever happened to people actually giving a shit about others feelings? Why is it ok to treat someone like they are a freakin robot who has no ability to be hurt?
I try my hardest to be straight up with potential dates, or friends. When someone takes that, ignores it, and chooses instead to tamper with my emotions, it tends to make me very angry. Then when that person tries to make rules as to how things are handled if they happen to go sideways, then knowingly helps it to go sideways, that pisses me off even more. It's like they want to cause as much destruction as they feel like and walk away without any consequences. Here's me hoping that "he" reaps the consequences of his selfish, dishonorable and callous treatment of someone he said was his "friend".
What sort of selfish prick does this? I'll tell you what sort, about 90% of the men I've dealt with. How's that for a statistic that I pulled out of my ass. Not only did I pull it out of my ass, but my ass produces pretty accurate crap. Guess what guys, if you don't "do drama" stay away from relationships. If you don't want to "hurt someone" then don't. If you don't want to "be involved" then don't have sex. If you want to be a total asshat, then just go live in the woods and leave people alone.
I think I've had enough. I already knew I never wanted to be in jail.. I mean married again, but after a few years of dealing with the aforementioned bullshit, I'm done. It's time to give up the juvenile dreams of true love, soul mates, and weak in the knees. It's all propaganda that has been fed to us by the main stream media. Or maybe it was fairy tales in childhood books, I can't remember. At any rate, I think I'll take on a new stance from now on when coming across the opposite sex. I'll just get my shovel out and dig the hole right then, and save myself the grief of mistakenly thinking something might come out of it that is productive and positive. I just looked in the mirror and realized for the first time in my life I have a tattoo stamped on my forehead. It says "please shit all over my heart because I really like it".